Weight gain: I've gained 2.4 lbs. this week. Overall weight gain is at 6.6 lbs.
Maternity clothes: I've been lounging in leggings mostly this week and big t-shirts. Whenever I go out for doctor's appointments I typically wear a maxi skirt or my maternity shorts.
Stretch Marks: Just the one weird one on my left side, still applying coconut oil all over.
Belly button in or out: In, but super flat.
Sleep: I had a bit of insomnia earlier in the week, it was miserable. I moved to the couch so I wouldn't wake up my husband and I just watched paid programming and this show called "Jail" until about 4 in the morning when I finally went to sleep. Then I had another night where I just didn't feel comfortable in bed, so I slept on the couch until about 6:30 am and then was able to sleep in bed. It's been a weird week.
Best moment this week: My husband has been writing Daphne a song and this week he finished it and showed it to me. It is the most beautiful song I have ever heard in my life! I started crying by line 2, it's just so awesome to see how much my husband already loves our daughter.
Worst moment this week: Bed rest has definitely been challenging. I have to get up and sit on the couch or my exercise ball throughout the day because laying in bed just hurts. It's hard to keep up with my water intake because I'm usually sleeping. My husband keeps reminding me that even though I'm bored to tears because I'm doing 'nothing', I'm actually doing a big 'something' for Daphne and keeping her growing is the best thing I can be doing right now.
Miss anything: This may sound weird but I was thinking about these last few weeks before Daphne gets here and how our lives will change so much, and I realized that I already miss my husband. I already miss being able to just wake up and run out the door and get breakfast, walk around and just hold hands and do whatever we want. I understand we can still do those things with a baby, but it gets a bit more tricky. I just really cherish the years that we've had just the two of us and I know that as our children get older, I will be so excited to get them out of the house so I can have him all to myself again! haha
Movement: Daphne's movements are basically just her adjusting herself at this point, I usually feel her back/backside on my left side and her feet, hands and probably elbows and knees on my right side. She is pretty consistent though, I can always count on a few pushes and movements in the morning and a lot more movement at night.
Symptoms: Fatigue, nesting (which my sweet husband has graciously been doing for me), lack of appetite, mild nausea, frequent Braxton Hicks contractions, menstrual-like cramps, some abdominal pains, constipation, more mucus, leaky boobs and sore feet, legs and back.
Cravings: Sooo if you remember my 35 week bump update, I told you about how my amazing husband bought me 5 big packages of Reese's Cups. Well, this week's craving was definitely those Reese's Cups and I am slightly ashamed to admit that all 5 packages are gone. But they were sooo good.
Queasy or sick: I'm not sure what triggers it, maybe I need to be snacking more throughout the day, but several times throughout the day I just feel queasy and sometimes hungry at the same time.
Looking forward to: I know I said this last week but my Mom comes THIS WEEK! And I could not be more excited!! I'm so glad that she will get to be here for Daphne's birth and she is going to be such a God-send during those first few weeks of adjusting to life with a newborn.
Thanks for stopping by! If you haven't seen Daphne's nursery, you should go check it out!
We wanted to wait a few weeks to go to the OBGYN after
finding out we were pregnant again. The visits to the doctor in early pregnancy
have always caused me such anxiety; the unknowns, the inconclusiveness. So I
waited. For about 4 weeks I was able to enjoy my pregnancy in ignorant - although nauseous - bliss.
I had some blood work done about a week before our first
sonogram, my HCG levels came back extremely high. Our first sonogram confirmed
what I already knew in my heart to be true.
Twins. Two babies. TWO. BABIES.
I knew it all along. I had a feeling early in my pregnancy
that there was more than one baby growing inside me.
But the sonogram was not all happy news.
We saw the first baby right away with a relatively slow
heart rate of 89 bpm, but it was strong, clearly seen and measured. The
technician asked about my ovulation dates and cautiously noticed that the baby
was measuring small and two weeks off. She was able to get a great picture of
the first baby for us.
I knew I was pregnant. Before I got the positive test on January 5th, I simply knew. I would like to say that I was filled with hope and courage but I admit that those things felt a million miles away. I was unable to envision a little sandy haired Wagner Baby. I couldn’t picture what life would be like with this little one. I couldn’t see beyond the elephant in the room - the word I absolutely despise. The word “miscarriage” seemed permanently tattooed across my forehead. I couldn’t escape the thought that I would never get to meet this baby. But the Lord gave me a name. Upon sharing my news with trusted friends and a few family members, I realized that several of my friends were pregnant as well! Truly I was happy for them. But I couldn’t shake the thought, “Great, now I will have to watch my friends go on to have healthy pregnancies while I mourn, to remind me of all the milestones I will never see with this baby.” But the Lord gave me a name. My word for 2018 was “REMEMBER” and boy,…
"5 positive pregnancy tests. 2 healthy babies. 2
miscarriages. 1 complete unknown. There is this misconception in our faith that if
we learn the lessons the Lord would have us learn in our pain, that we can
cross that hardship off the list and never have to walk that road again. That
if we walk around loudly enough in the victory of healing and acceptance that
the Lord would not allow the same pain to repeat itself. After all, why would a
good God heal us only to rip open the wound and leave us hemorrhaging faith all
I wrote these words two weeks ago; a couple weeks after we found out we were unexpectedly pregnant, one day before finding out that we would most likely be losing another baby in early miscarriage. The night that I saw that second line on the pregnancy test, I was honestly upset. I had no intention of getting pregnant, in fact it was my plan to not get pregnant this year. With the knowledge of every previous pregnancy has been excitement, planning and…