Gender: Our ultrasound tech gave us a good guess at our last appointment, but we're waiting to make an official announcement until our anatomy scan. The baby was all balled up like a little pretzel, so hopefully we'll get a better "look" in a couple weeks.
Weight gain: I've gained .6 lbs.! Woo-hoo! Doc said I've got about 20 more to gain from now until the due date. Bring on the Blue Bell.
Maternity clothes: Still wearing my Old Navy maternity jeans, and regular pre-pregnancy tops. Although I have purchased a few super cute maternity tops in the past few weeks. And am tempted to wear them all the time because they're so soft!! Don't judge.
Stretch marks: None yet. Still slathering lotion all over! I use the Body Shop Moringa body butter, and found out last week that it's great for elasticity! And it smells HEAVENLY.
Belly button in or out: In.
Sleep: This week has been kinda weird, I have woken up pretty nauseous in the middle of the night. It helps when I eat a little, so I'm assuming I just need to eat earlier and more regularly. I've also decided to save a hundred bucks on the pregnancy pillow and just ask my husband to sleep right up along side of me all night, so I stay on my side :) I think he's a big fan....jk.
Best moment this week: I have two best moments for this week, the first is that someone anonymously purchased our stroller for us!! We set it up right away and absolutely LOVE it! Can't wait to find out who it was! My second favorite moment this week would be hanging out and eating tacos with my close friends, one of whom is probably going to have her baby in the next week or so! We took a picture of our baby bumps together before she left! (Keep in mind that we ate tacos, so my bump is probably more food than baby)
Worst moment this week: That would definitely be Sunday. I was sick allll day. Woke up nauseous and continued to feel awful through that night. So either baby didn't like something I ate on Saturday, or this is just pregnancy and I better get used to feeling awesome one second and like death the next. Bring it on. I'm having a baby.
Miss anything: MY MOM. But seriously. I wish she just lived with me and we could just gush about babies and life and ministry 24/7. She is hands-down my bestie and she will be the best Mom-mom in the world.
Movement: I hate to be one of those new Moms who thinks they feel movement as early as 16-17 weeks....but I think I have! I mean really faint flutters, but I'm almost positive that it was a little baby moving around and not my 3rd strawberry pop tart.
Symptoms: Mild cramping, nausea (boo!), dizziness, congestion and fatigue.
Cravings: I've been trying to eat more and also eat healthy, so I've strategically shopped for a bunch of fruit and veggies and healthy protein! Unfortunately the pop tarts are still in the house, so that's been my go-to.
Queasy or sick: A bit of both. Ugh. But I'm having a baby so wa-hoo!
Looking forward to: Finding out, for sure, what gender we're having! I'm so excited! I doubt we'll do any kind of gender reveal party, but we do plan on announcing once we find out!
I also wanted to share with you a book that my Mom sent me that has quickly become one of my favorite books for pregnancy! I was a bit overwhelmed with What to Expect, and this book offers a more light-hearted, sarcastic, yet godly overview of the whole pregnancy experience. It's SUCH an easy read and also super informative!
We wanted to wait a few weeks to go to the OBGYN after
finding out we were pregnant again. The visits to the doctor in early pregnancy
have always caused me such anxiety; the unknowns, the inconclusiveness. So I
waited. For about 4 weeks I was able to enjoy my pregnancy in ignorant - although nauseous - bliss.
I had some blood work done about a week before our first
sonogram, my HCG levels came back extremely high. Our first sonogram confirmed
what I already knew in my heart to be true.
Twins. Two babies. TWO. BABIES.
I knew it all along. I had a feeling early in my pregnancy
that there was more than one baby growing inside me.
But the sonogram was not all happy news.
We saw the first baby right away with a relatively slow
heart rate of 89 bpm, but it was strong, clearly seen and measured. The
technician asked about my ovulation dates and cautiously noticed that the baby
was measuring small and two weeks off. She was able to get a great picture of
the first baby for us.
I knew I was pregnant. Before I got the positive test on January 5th, I simply knew. I would like to say that I was filled with hope and courage but I admit that those things felt a million miles away. I was unable to envision a little sandy haired Wagner Baby. I couldn’t picture what life would be like with this little one. I couldn’t see beyond the elephant in the room - the word I absolutely despise. The word “miscarriage” seemed permanently tattooed across my forehead. I couldn’t escape the thought that I would never get to meet this baby. But the Lord gave me a name. Upon sharing my news with trusted friends and a few family members, I realized that several of my friends were pregnant as well! Truly I was happy for them. But I couldn’t shake the thought, “Great, now I will have to watch my friends go on to have healthy pregnancies while I mourn, to remind me of all the milestones I will never see with this baby.” But the Lord gave me a name. My word for 2018 was “REMEMBER” and boy,…
"5 positive pregnancy tests. 2 healthy babies. 2
miscarriages. 1 complete unknown. There is this misconception in our faith that if
we learn the lessons the Lord would have us learn in our pain, that we can
cross that hardship off the list and never have to walk that road again. That
if we walk around loudly enough in the victory of healing and acceptance that
the Lord would not allow the same pain to repeat itself. After all, why would a
good God heal us only to rip open the wound and leave us hemorrhaging faith all
I wrote these words two weeks ago; a couple weeks after we found out we were unexpectedly pregnant, one day before finding out that we would most likely be losing another baby in early miscarriage. The night that I saw that second line on the pregnancy test, I was honestly upset. I had no intention of getting pregnant, in fact it was my plan to not get pregnant this year. With the knowledge of every previous pregnancy has been excitement, planning and…