I'm not very good at praying. I never really have been. I've always loved journaling, so Bible study hasn't been as difficult. When I study the Word I feel like I have control over my spiritual life, I have something to respond to. When I pray, I feel awkward and usually get distracted. It might be because every time a need presents itself in my life, I know that the Lord knows exactly what to do. Even if I don't have a sweet clue. So I guess after so many "needs" presented themselves I just stopped praying. I think I've justified it by telling myself that God and I have this "unspoken" relationship where we don't even need to talk about things...we just pick up where we left off. I've always felt convicted about my prayer life with the Lord, but never had the tools or understanding to do anything differently. Car troubles are not a foreign concept to the Wagner family. Last week when our car began shutting down at red lights we j…
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She’s thrown down Shameful and scarred. Pieced together with affections Affections that died long ago She remains shallow And the mystery of her purity Lies open and naked on the street. Where once stood dignity Now lies defeat Where once was a quiet blossom Their lies a fallen roseFallen into sin Awakened by guilt Will hope and forgiveness Find their way into her heart? He lifts her chin She can not meet His gaze He asks her, “Who condemns you?” There is no one Not a soul She has found redemption A clean and healed heart Her sins are forgiven She's given a fresh start. I wrote this during my freshman year of college. I love the story in John 8:1-11. If you haven't read it and this doesn't make sense -- go read the passage. It's a short but amazing picture of God's redeeming love.
I listen to a lot of music. Different genres, different styles. Some of it I always love and some I really have to be in the mood for. When I was in middle school I listened to a whole lot of Ginny Owens, Point of Grace, Avalon and on my especially rebellious days; Britney Spears and Backstreet Boys. As I grew older I started to adapt this "change-the-world-I-don't-need-boys" mentality which was anthemed by the likes of Barlow Girl, Carrie Underwood and mostly fueled by Bethany Dillon. When I was in high school I listened to a lot of Switchfoot, Relient K, Anberlin, Sherwood and always Bethany Dillon. Now I find that I listen to everything from Rascal Flatts to big broadway soundtracks like Wicked. If I still wrote songs and played the guitar I'm sure my music would sound totally different from my young worshipful tunes I wrote in high school. But I'm grateful for those songs. Although I would never sing them in a public setting, even if you paid me. But they w…